29 December 2005
i trust u
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i don care
going or not doesnt matter anymore
mayb i m disappointed beyond hope.
i juz cant be bothered by it anymore
don ask me
don gimme hope and take that away again
its smth not gonna happen,i guess
its nth to do wit anyone..
i juz decided to gif up hope on going.
its gonna be a hopeless oneeeee
i hate it.
the hopeless feeling
but its not up to us..
it juz cant happen.
its juz....sigh
we don have enuff time to accomodate all our needs and wants..
everything seems to clash.
its about his responsibilities..
i understand..
i don wan him to give up anything juz to go holiday wit me.
i reallie don mind not going..
i don wan him to b a sinner juz cuz he wans me to be happy...
i wld like the fun of going...but i m not sure i able to go yet...
according to the new plan...i needa skip sch...he needa take leave
haiz its a clash of everything...
i m hopin...for a hopeless holiday..
hoping it will come someday..
goin this time seems screwed. for sc and jm
whether going or not i DON care anymore
its hopelesssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
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27 December 2005
christmas was good....its one of the most romantic one...
thanks sweetz
trust
its something which u earn..
its smth not easily given..
transparency is required if u wan trust..
sometimes gers juz don readily trust..
sometimes gers are juz to wary..
sometimes guys juz seem to have too much to hide..
don blame us for being UNtrusting...
u guys juz look not trustworthy...
learn to earn the trust u wan..
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21 December 2005
sick sick sick
puke puke puke
sore throat !
omg is that my pre christmas suffering?
haiz i m so irritated.
all my plans are screwing up...
cuz i m pukish and not eating..
ate onli chee chiong fun for dinner la...
and like for breakfast and lunch combine..a pack of maggi meee
i think i m gonna faint soon..
i m so full..with don know wat..
feeling a bit faint probably due to lack of food...
my flu making me feel drowsy too..lack of oxygen
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wahaha i know its cheating...its wed today...i m pretendin its tues...so that i can blog the good stuff that happened on tues..
Shuicai said i brought good luck to him...
i think i did...but more or less his luck already quite good all his life..i juz made it better..
since my life have already been smooth all my life too...
too good made it even better
he cleared his exams...although he taut he confirm 99% will pau one...
he almost wanteed to get MC for that paper..
haha i was against the MS thingy..i m a honest ger..
and he got D+
he got his job at exon mobile when he told the person during the interview that he don wan the job...though he actually does..(its complicated)
and since he managed to clear his exams....he got enuff AUs to continue the IA...
and king kong is how nice! must watch
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19 December 2005
listening to christmas carols and looking at shuicai's smiling face...<== wat makes me happy i m happy==>i have shuicai this christmas
wahahahha
c wat he wrote..
so touching...
i asked...u like spending time..by fetching me ard?even if its more convenient for us to meet in town?
水才 says:
yes
水才 says:
cos i couldnt bear to c u on a lonely bus ride to town now that i m part of ur life
子 燕 says:
reallie!
子 燕 says:
haha
子 燕 says:
so touched
水才 says:
n moreover....i wanna c u more each day...
水才 says:
so we can really tok on bus while travelling there
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18 December 2005
i don think i m a person wit major mood swings..
but recently..i realised my mood can be easily affected by others..
esp ppl imp to me..
things they say..
or things they DoN say..
actually made me sad or happy..
christmas has always been my favourite season of the year..
but...
its not always the happiest or most special..
i really wanna enjoy this holiday this yr..
it has been 3 yrs since i thoroughly enjoy my christmas..
SANTA CLAUS>>> i wan a happy christmas
a simple one will do..
i wan a pleasant surprise...
i wan no tears
no regrets this christmas
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WANTS
shuicai for company on christmas
denim skirts..MORE
hollister t shirts
blouse,.( juz realised i look good in them...even ah thiongs kind...its me la)
bohemian necklace..
necklace made of bronze
earrings made of pearls
addidas sweater
bracelets
anklets
bags
pullover
bra+underwear
socks
hopefully santa claus is kind enufffff maybe gimme at least a few of my wants
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14 December 2005
i m so caught up in everything..
social event coming up...
hall stuff...
tuition...
i totally didnt keep check of the dates...
guess wat.. its 14th today..
i got a surprise from sc..
he sent me home... den
said... didnt u leave smth in my bag?
well i m blur..but was sure i didnt..but was ultra exhausted from hockey training..
and from trying to look like my blisters don hurt...so that he won be worried
so i juz said donhave la...and wAs about to move off...
den he pulled out smth from his bag..
haha tigger...the soft toy which caught my eye sometime ago...
he went to imm juz to get it for me...
oh my god...
i was so touched...
if not cuz of my ultra tired eyes..from more than 12 hours of contact lens wearing...
i would have teared...
i was that touched..
he totally caught me of guard...
happy 3rd month...and still counting..
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11 December 2005
sometimes..
its the simplicity of things that made my day
looking into the eyes of someone u love when u wake up in the morning..
taking long walks to get to some place for breakfast/lunch..
the sharing of some nice food...
watching some vcd together..
the loving look..
the respect he gives..
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08 December 2005
finally...
went out with xin today!..
ahaha we both wore black tube..
i bought shoes...and a boxers for sc..
haha the shop where i bought the boxers is ultra kinky la!
with some weird lookin logo on the sweets...
its in the pics xin helped me post...
ahhaha i m so cok! i don noe how to work this blog..
ahha anyway i drank at 2 coffee places in like the short 3 hours we spend shopping..
haha
my toes are hurt! that affected my shopping stamina..
xin keep laffing when i express my new fantasy..of the BUBBLE skirt...
i think it looks good..
however..thats prob because we can picture it on top of legs...
xin thinks it won go wit legs...
ahhaha
the queenof the queens...ultra boring...so crowded..
cant c a thing..
waste of time..
if OC gonna go...DnD gonna go..gonna miss hall 3...
the ppl in hall 3...
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hello! it's me xin blogging for silly yen coz she doesnt know how to put pictures up.bodoh.
these were some pictures taken:



wonderfully enhanced using ziyen's fantastic photoshopping skills.HAHA.
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06 December 2005
woohoo..
i went to arab street yesterday..actually to help social fnd cheap black cloth..
which i did..
or my mom did...
haha
90cents!woohoo..china cloth..ahha cheap china cloth
anyway..i saw this reallie nice yellow cloth! fell in love..totally..
ahha its quite ex..since its a french imported cloth..ohh so classy!
but my mom managed to get it at the cheaper price..
i shall upload the photos of the cloth when i finally learn to upload pictures..haha such posh and elegant looking cloth shld be admired by all!
hahah
i will b wearing it as a tube dress...hehe
actually theres this other super elegant cloth too...but the design is kinda hard to be made into a dress..
wahahha feels like i'm going for prom...
the design of the dress will be ultra simple..cuz the cloth is already ultra nice...
so excited!
ohhh
hahah
i found several good bargains there too..quite bohemian...quite me..think i will be going back to get more stuff soon..
the chains are reallie nice...will look like some unique belt..so i m confirm going back for one..its quite ex though..hopefully my mom will be willing to do down to get it for me..her familiar face..confrim can get discount!haahahCONFIRM must get her there!
shuicai started work today..i feel a bit weird...like smth is missing..though we msged each other quite often..smth is juz diff..feels a bit alone..
i went back for floor ball..actually wanted to go to his room to watch tv...
but the sudden stab of sadness stopped me..
i will feel ultra sad to be in his room..ALONE..
i will feel like i m waiting for him to get back from class...but the difference is....
he wont be walking in any time..
i needa get used to being in hall without him ard..
and he needs to get used to knowing i m in hall and he is not..
actually this juz made us miss each other more...
i was quite pissed yesterday..i really wanted to buy him a belt..pierre cardin..but he don wan me to spend so much...
den i agreed on G2000...
AND>>>>he paid using voucher..according to my maths..
$43-$40voucher=$3..
wats the point!
i needa get him another pressie for christmas..
juz in case u are reading this...haha i m not gonna say wat pressie i gonna buy..don bother to read on!
hahah
christmas is coming! yeah
next tues going swimming wit haven!woohoo..
finally need some tan to look good in my tube dres...ahaha TAN some other areas la..not the arms and legs..i understand that i m how similar to an indian la!
and amos said i m gonan be the same colour as my hair sooN!
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04 December 2005
OMG
xie yun yi totally don have nice hair!
tay ping hui is totally yucky
the onli two person i dislike in the whole mediacorp...
managed to be well liked by the fans...
YUCKS
i m so gonna faint..ppl say tay ping hui so cute..
omg..pig also so cute...
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yesterday was hectic...
i wanted to go for P n P to support shuicai ..he was playing softball...
i forgot to bring my keys! den i needa waste time going home to get my keys.....SHUCKS
by the time i reached hall..its like 6pm...
i saw wan cai and winston at jp..so coincidental
ahhaha....they nv change...at all
i was ultra touched by shuicai...
i was suppose to do my canvasing job..sp...by being a route marshall at the standard chartered marathon...
i was a bit sad at first...cuz...JM+can...char+robin..
felt a bit lonely..
but i didnt reallie show my emotions...
but wat he said reallie touched me..
he wanted to accomapny me...
he wanted to do the canvasing job with me..
juz so that we can spend time together..
he's having attachment starting tmr...yet he decided to do the canvasing job wit me...
the job: being awake from 2am to 1pm ..standing in the hot sun..20 bucks only...
he was prepared to stay wit me till 2am if he cannot join the canvasing...
wat more do i ask for!
OMG..he is reallie reallie as in love with me as i m in him though he insist he love me more.....
ANd I so So love him...
i m really bad at showing my love for him..i shall learn....i wa him to feel as much love as i have for him!
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03 December 2005
the first week of holidays almost over..
my plans for holidays are screwed...
shopping====no money
clubbing====don like smoke
swimming===its raining
working=====no time
slacking=====den no time to do the above
batam======heard its too dangerous
spending time wit sc====hes going on attachment
spending time wit my friends==schedule clashes
do dnd===its so screwed
OH SHUCKS
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01 December 2005
sigh...
i m feeling weird..
kinda disorientated..
lotsa stuff to do..many things to achieve yet m feelin too discouraged to even think bout doing anything constructive..
i m gonna give up real soon
maybe i m juz...
a human shaped cardboard..
smth thats emotionless and onli good for show..and harmless..
some
differences..
slow fast..
careful careless
extrovert introvert
sensitive insensitive
draggy choppy
sometimes i reallie think the problem lies in me...why do i feel slightly irritated...why isit!i m irritated wit myself being irritated.i m irritated wit my inability to stay happy..
i m losing my emotions...really..not more happi no more sad..empty
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