29 November 2005
sometimes its the speed of things which makes us desensitised.
sometimes is the unexpected turn out of things..being traumatising..that made us stone in shock..
sometimes its juz the lack of spunk...
sometimes it juz laziness..lazy to decipher our emotions..
i don understand why i have been having not much emotions recently...
not happy
not sad
not disappointed
not irritated
the emotions juz build up in a split sec.
and within a minute..i start to stone..
wats wrong wit me...
i m being desensitised..
becoming the square thing with wafer..wit micro chips?
worst..i m not thinking like the smart square box suppose to..
i m juz passing time..according to wat i think i needa do...
i don mind doing..
i might regret not doing...
i kind have a spit sec of wanting to do...
the emotions juz get drained away within the split sec...
no control over it...
somehow i m doing things without brains or heart...or kinda split sec of heart..
maybe one day i will feel my skin becoming cold..shiny and hard...
like the square thing..
den maybe someone will fix my brain...link it to my heart..let it control my emotions...or make my emotions stay longer...make me someone with emotions...someone who can feel sadness when i c pooor kids on tv...someone who can feel happiness when i c someone in wedding gown..
someone i was....
i m becoming the square shiny thing..
HELp...
maybe..a stone too..thats bad...thats more primitive.
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25 November 2005
i was looking through some of my stuff in hall..den i saw this reallie farnie thing.smth which reminded me of a sweet little act sc did..
theres this night.. i was damn stress..cuz there test the next day...den exams coming..den someone totally pissed me off..damn sad too..
den i was chattign wit him on msn...complaining...den suddenly he say he've got smth very imp to do...i taut hes gonna do some OC thing...den felt even worst...den i juz sulk and stoned in front of my desk and notes...ahhaha stef was trying to make me less pissed..
den after half an hour of stoning decided to start mugging..
hahaha den sc came into my room..holding this paper plate looking thing,..kinda ugly...hahah hes bad at art..but it made me ultra sweetified. he made this happy face wit the words cheer up on the plate and wit the light sticks in a heart shape..to cheer me up..
hahaha
looking at it now...OMG he is damn sweet
econs paper was er..
no comments..totally don know how i ll fare..
its like when u know the contents reallie well..u will know how u do ...whether ya ans are correct..
but..in my case..
i don know...
i juz bluff my way thru and hopefullie..my not so common sense happen to be correct..
i m starting to regret going for so many hall games trials...
cuz i think i cannot reallie make it..i suck at volley,havent tried basketballl..ect
....and so many trainings..
i needa work..get paid..
do DnD stuff..union stuff...
aiyah...die la..
i wanan go batam cable ski..
i m soooo bz this holiday...
i needa swim..if not i gonna go nuts..
but my mom keep nagging...aiyah where got so unlucky of so many pppl in the pool thunder strike on me de..wats she worrying bout.............
though i know i m unluclky...in water..or watever...got so suay one meh!
touch wood
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23 November 2005
haha wat a weird show..
theres this ultra weird show airing on channel u now..
ahah think its the one shuicai told me bout..
bout some guy known as doctor LOVE
OH MY GOD>>
they're discussing bout sex without BREAST
and somehow...he decides that guys love breasts..
and breasts are important components in sex!?
watever...i think i m kinda underage for the show..
heard that last week the doctor love going through some sex position thing..
i din realised that our society has become that liberal over the yrs..
wahahha...
doctor love look a bit cheeky..so teh show seems a bit sleazy...aahh tehy shld have made the show seem more professional...and less sleazy...its suppose to be a info kinda documentary..but the backgrd music is totally off...
aiyo!
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22 November 2005
xin!ahhahah so farnie communicating thru my blog..
aiyah
today i m like utterly disgusted...
wit my luck
i m soooooo irritated
i went clementi to eat lunch wit shuicai..
it was suppose to be fun..cuz i usually quite like the food there..and i like eating..
DEN..
it had to rain...
as in if the rain and the activity seperate...like mayb rain on some other day...
i prob won have such a bad day
i think i have a thing for cleanliness...myab i m a cleanliness freak
i hate walking thru wet grounds wit slippers...cuz i dislike the feeling of the er.. not very clean water splshing on my feet...
worst still..this guy stepped on to the back of my slippers...
worst still no 2.. my slippers are frictionless...
i nearly fell!aiyah...so pissed
that totally utterly pissed me to the max...i was already pissed when i was walking thru the food centre....cuz i can onli walk damn slow...and everyone ard me walking at rocket speed incomparison to me!WHERE ARE THEY RUSHING TO?
AND...AIYAH I DON KNOW LA>>>DAMN PISSED
but lucky the companionship was good...ahah wit sc...confirm made it a lot better...juz that his legs quite long...walk a bit fast...btu can c he slowed down for me...mayb at mrt speed...i m at er...the speed which pigs are learning to fly..yeah....and PIGS DONT FLY
i love rainy days..
i love wearing slippers.
i love clementi hawker food..
BUT
they juz don go together
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xin to ziyen: Wait till after my exams, lah!
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21 November 2005
whinning
mat sci totally suck big time.
wat the!
ppl walking off like one hour before the paper ends..
while i was like tryin damn hard to not fall asleep and think of the formulas..
shucks
i made up like 3 formulas
i m so dead
hopefully i will be on the right side of the bell shape curve.
hahaha
aiyah..cant even find my complete set of econs notes...how to passssssss
hopefully jm will be able to help me pass...i doubt i can come up wit any intelligent questions to ask him...
at this point in time..i don have any question yet..
cuz i havent even read anything...
i m so screwed
hehe i din realised we can actually delete our blog entries until i read jm's blog.
i needa a blogger guide...
haha my sign off seems quite mushy..
all thanx to xin!haha and i don noe how to change it to anything else..cuz i m a blogger idiot..
xin!wei..help me change to smth less mushy le..
sc going on attachment soon..so sad,i think i'm gonna miss him...
decided to spend more time wit my friends though..
beeen neglecting my friends for some time..
zing suggested dinner together...sometime..
shall organise some og thing soon..
haha gonna go beach wit haven angels soon..exciting
wahhaa hopefully its not gonna rain on that day
shoppin too...hehe wit jm's vouchers..i think i will be er..close to broke...
(without vouchers..confirm broke)
wahahha
OMG..
i m doin it again..planning my holiday schedule even b4 my exams end...
i shld be consolidating my notes,
SHUCKS
my fingers don seem to be responding..
ohhh i juz keep typing instead of closing this window....
oh my good..
i think i got some nerve disorder..
shuckkkkkkkks
ARGH
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20 November 2005
its 1am plus..i m not gonna make it...
i needa study more,
cant screw up mat sci...
i taut its gonna be easy..until i started doin the past yr papers..
wats wrong wit the tutors...
so evil.tryin to kill us..
watever...
damn stress
but hopefully...the paper gonna be easy..
either its easy..(as in i can do)
or its damn hard...den haha..i won die that madly
haha
econs...inching...nearer...
yucks
hopefully jianming's tutoring skills are good enuff to save me from my doom...
dammit...
wats wit the eutetic alpha..how come it din appear in tuts..
OMG...
i m going nuts..
i think i gonna become plastic..
i think metal better..it seems to be able to conduct electricity..heat and its magnetic..ferromagnetic..iron..
i M Nutz
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17 November 2005
todays suppose to be our belated anniversary celebration...due to exams
sc is so sweet..though his plan didnt work out..
haha he knows i like eeyore..so he decided to trickily check whether the carefour at suntect still sells those extremely big ones...(i onli like big soft toys..small ones are so insignificant when u hug them)
haha he wanted to give me a surprise... by buying the huge toy and gif it to me while i was looking at some CDs..
HOWEVER..things din go as plan...they don sell the usual kinds..juz those wit christmas hat..
haha and that like how off for an anniversary gift..
but overall..he was ultra sweet..
i wanted to eat some almond jelly and cheng teng..right after a filling lunch..
he bought me a bowl of each..
and i ate some..
he had to finish the rest..
we were full...
and he knew i m not gonna eat everything in the bowl..yet he still got them for me
haha
so sweet..
we went to watch harry potter...he booked the tix the day b4...
and guess wat!we saw joyce mixue and ling and (GUESS AGAIN...)YES..they will be watching the same show...same time..wahaha
wat a coincidence..
den at mos burger...i saw ying wen!kok ho..and heard from ying wen Ada was there too
my god..reunion ah..
she too...
watching the same show same time..
juz to prove how coincidental it is..
the timings for the show were like 6,630,7,730...
so many le!
ahhaha
miss the Gems man..long time nv prata together dy..
ahhaha hopefully not so soon..its my turn to treat prata...haha mayb i shall get JC to go..
haha and pretend it's forever his turn..
wahahha
i will treat...determine to treat prata...
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16 November 2005
so proud of my sneaky plan..which worked well
its our 2nd month anniversary today..
and since i have the keys to sc's room...
hahah i decided to sneak into his room while he was out doing his traumatising exams...
i bought cheesecake..and sneaked in..
haha he was chatting wit his friend when he opened the door..
he didnt even realised i was there...guess why?
i m so sneaky that i kept my slippers in his room...so he don have a clue that i was inside..
when he saw me..hahaha needless to say..
the only word to describe his feelings must be
SWEETIFIED
due to exams..we havent seen each other since like sat..
that kinda increase the sweetness to like 10 times..
wahaha so smart of me..
tiny plan...great sweetness and great sincerity..since its my dreaded weekend in like 4days..i could have stayed home to study yet i was there...carrying out my sweet sneaky little plan..
ahaha
but i m totally looking forward to tmr..since we're officially celebrating it tmr...
OMG...haha bio in like 3 days
and im going out tmr..
feel guilty
BUT...
WATEVER...
i needa break...
haha ( though i spend most of my time having breaks...)
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14 November 2005
in 4 days time..
the most dreaded weekend..
with bio mat sci and econs within a week
OMG like how is it gonna happen
and the weekend will be Mat Sci all the way...
most of the dread comes from econs though...
i don seem to be able to understand the concepts enough to do the tutorials. probably it my fault..
i probably didnt attend enough lectures to understand the concept..
probably the lack of seats at lecture theatre contributed to me being unable to attend lectures..
watever...its too late to stat analysing wats screwing up my ability to understand econs.
kinda disappointed..i juz got the bikini i wanted..the design..but its grey instead of white..
the white bikinis all happened to be faulty..how coincidental
i m banking on the hints given by tt for bio exam..hopefully it wont turn out like the maths test..(tt lied...the maths test is like zillion times harder than tuts)
i m planning smth small yet kinda sweet for our anniversary..hopefully it will turn out as sweet as i visualisd.
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13 November 2005
went for dinner with sc's family at balithai..
oh my god..the food is how hot!shucks my ulcer came back..
haha he is totally sweet...
and his family likes me...
i m pretty sure..
hahah
i m how lovable
oh my oh my..
its gonna be our 2nd month soon..lookin forward..
wat should i get?
oh...gonna get the tube bikini soon...
so attracted to it..been looking at it since like who knows when..
and
to make the price worthwhile,i shall go tanning frequently..though i don reallie need the tan
going tanning wit sunblock lotion...how ironical
tanning anyone?or swimming?mayb i shld go some beachy place for a vacation..
maybe batam for wakeborading again...
or redang for snorkelling again?
or prob...
learn diving...
swimming...i love swimming...but i don reallie wanna get all bulky and big.
ohhh shucks i shldnt be planning my vacation schedule now.
...i shld be studying bout introns..extrons...and DNAs..
wateverr..its like friday
ohhh cooll..white bikini...
shucks...totallie totallie attracted to it...
fetish for tubes...but i don reallie wear revealing tops..
contradictory.
watever..i gonna get the tube bikini
CONFIRM
gonna get a new dress soon too...haha my mom gonna make a dress for me again...
i gonna go for sc's sis's wedding dinner on new year's eve! yeah! how cool right...
he's gonna wear a suit...confirm ultra ucte..
haha and me in the tube dress...confirm ...cute too
worth looking forward to...
haha i shall get back to my notes tmr....fatigue is getting to me..shucks..
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12 November 2005
the phy was average..
do-able
but i made a dumb mistake..watever
prob will pass
chatted wit my jc fren today..
i juz realised that hall has reallie made my social circle in uni larger..
but it also made me learnt to treasure xin,swiss gems and the others more than ever..
i realised how superficial are some of the friendships built in uni...
ta bao or grade D: doing most of those mentioned below frequently
saying hi and bye...saying hows life...these greetings are too polite and superficial..
.imagine if thats gonna be all that people around you ever ask..
i totally cannot stand people asking hows life..
but i always ask..what can i say..gers are contradictory
like what kinda answers can one get right...
so predictable...
like 'life sucks' or 'ok lo'
so its so predictable and insincere that it stings
when you ask wats up wit you and the cute guy/ger..hoping to get some juicy news..
consequences: trouble and the friend dont coexist
grade A,B,C :when u do all,most,a few of those mentioned below and not done those mentioned above..
its when u can joke around with each other yet knowing their limits for taking jokes..
when u ask a friend bout hows her/his life in a certain aspect..asking more about his/her development with the intention of showing concern and giving encouragement..not gossip,when you give his or her a stern scolding when you don agree wit wat he/she is doing..
when you dont feel at ease when you know he or she is pissed at you...
that the roots of a friendship grow deeper.
its with these deep roots that friendships last.
consequence:friend will appear before trouble does..and minimises the effects of trouble on you
.since the pressure is lower...Force/area...are is u and ur friend...shucks..i m such a phy person
i felt lucky..that i made few of those friends ... mostly from hall
still feeling touched by jian ming's chicken essence..hehe
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11 November 2005
i heard this joke over the radio yesterday..didnt reallie get the meaning at first..
haha
and OHMYGOD..its a dirty joke..
or at least i think it is..
haha
once, theres this man who discovered this stairways to success..(kinda lame )
he decided to explore.
when he reached the first storey, he met this pretty lady..
the lady said,' u can choose to stay here with me and we can make love till eternity..or u can continue to climb the stairs to success..'
he decided that success is wat he wants..
on the next storey, he met an even more sexy and hot lady..
again the lady offered him a choice of sex or success..
again he decided on success..
on the next storey..
he met wit the most gorgeous woman he had ever met..
wit her hot body and angelic features..
its reallie hard to make the choice..
but..he thought,' with the advancement of each storey,the ladies seem to be getting hotter..'
and he followed his instinct..and proceed on to 'success' which he taut would be some sex goddess
on the last story..
he met no lady...
theres only a fat,hairy man...
and the fat hairy man said..
'hi there, my name is cess'
haha corny joke.
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10 November 2005
i was totally ..utterly disgusted
pissed
wats wrong wit him!
why did he tell others i told him stufff?
i din!
why is he so childish!
teasing is all but mature..
its hurting if done seriously..like the way he does it
-sigh-
luckily the person involved believes me..
luckily he is not angry
i really treasure my friendship with him...
i won wanna lose his trust..
i m how blur...but this time! i m sure..i din leak anything
the last time we quarelled...its horrible...we juz cant concentrate on anything..too traumatised
but since he said the news somehow come from me...it must have
i m so pissed at myself..TOO BLUR
shucks
-sigh-
phy exams tmr..hopefully i won screw it up..
too pissed to reallie concentrate on my formulas...
SIGH
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09 November 2005
never say i love you, if you don't really care
never talk of feelings, if they aren't really there
never hold my hands, if you meant to break my heart
never say forever, if you ever plan to part
never look into my eyes, if you are telling me a lie
never say hello, if you think you'll say goodbye
never say that i'm the one, if you dream of more than one
never lock up my heart, if you don't have the keys...
i saw this passage and instantly feel in love wit it..
its so true..totally reflects how i wan to be treated..
stef is right..respect is important...
and these lines totally summarized the way of respect i wanna to be treated wit..
the love i await
the simplicity and purity of love..
isnt that wat everyone has been lookin for?
i have found it:)
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haha
the mis-spelled romantically..on my web add..
its on purpose..
cuz romantically is taken i guess or the blogger system screwed..
ahaha
so romatically is a variation
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after neglecting his cute and adorable sis=>me
for so long..jian ming finally showed some love!
haha
the chicken essence...the words on the chicken essence..
haha
ultra sweet
so thoughtful..4 boxes..one for each comin paper..hopefully..wit his encouragement and wit divine help..i will survive...
haha
its 15days left..still counting
i totally felt the change in my bro..haha
can's really the ger i guess
hehe
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cant believe myself..
wat m i doin?
its like 40 hours before physics exams..
no urge to study yet...
thats so unlike me.phy is one mod i reallie reallie don wanna screw up.
its smth i have always been confident bout.hopefully, the traumatising equations wldn't be required and i will be able to do the questions with the A levels knowledge..
FrEak..i m worrying bout econs now..and its like the last paper.
Econs econs econs econs econs
i needa start praying for econs now..
econs - predicted take away if not careful
thats why needa start praying erlie..
need major divine help..
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07 November 2005
blogging.
tedious
blogging.
box for emotions
blogging.
boredom
blogging.
trendy
blogging.
juz trying out...
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